She stared at the reflection of the sky in the clear lake water, the stars twinkling brightly and lighting up the dark. The moon was half full and clearly visible in the sky, its soft blue light shining down and coating everything in a gentle cool glow. The clouds were lightly parted from the other, floating lazily across the sky. The wind was blowing softly, ruffling her short hair. She felt alone. She had friends and that was nice, but she didn't have him. She thought she would be alright if he wasn't here and she did not think that she would miss him at all.

 

             He had not included her in his plans, which he instead had shared with someone else. He had shoved her aside and told her to worry about her problems while he dealt with his own. She felt betrayed and believed that it was because he didn't trust her. Ah, how mistaken she was. It was simply because he knew what he had to do and was simply making it so that she could do that which was necessary of her. How was it that she was always wrong about him, one way or the other? She had thought him to simply be cold and calculating, but he had shown that he was capable of kindness and care. On more than one occasion he had been there to hold her hand when she needed support, offered a shoulder when she was tired and needed a place to release her frustrations. She had taken him for granted and now that he was gone, she felt an empty hole in her heart.

 

              The night sky felt heavy, just like the weight of her heart. What she would give to see him again. She had wanted to send him a letter, tell him how she felt and maybe they could start over. However, she felt afraid and couldn't form the words on the paper. Now she sat on the front porch, looking up at the night sky and watching it turn light blue. She had been awake for quite a while for sleep evaded her. Her hands felt cold and her fingers felt numb. The chilly air made her hair stand as she wrapped her arms around herself, trying to keep warm. She then recalled the feeling of being in his embrace, how his arms around her had kept her safe and snug with a firm grip. She bit her lip at the memory, it was painful. It was a mistake to turn him away, she shouldn't have. The light breeze tickled her ear, reminding her of the way he would whisper to her kind words of encouragement.

 

               Drenched in the light of the pale moon, she took note that it was twilight, or perhaps even past that. She had lost track of the time she had spent sitting out in the cold thinking of him. It was painful to bring up the memories, knowing he wasn't here, but she didn't feel so alone that way. She wondered if he was doing the same thing, sitting outside and staring at the moon and the stars like she was. Pretending he was made it feel like they were connected despite the distance between them. If she could join hands with him using the string of stars that littered the sky, she would attempt it, just to be near him. He was far away from her now and she doubted she would ever see him again. She had made that choice, believing it was the right one, now she was not so sure it was anymore. She had been selfish and ignorant, but if she could do it all over again, she would definitely have tried harder to change. Silently praying to the moon, she hoped that fate would bring them together again, that she could apologize and they could start over. She sat, waited and watched until the night sky slowly faded away and the moon ducked low behind the mountains, making way for the sun.